"Was this betrayal or was it an act of courage? Perhaps both. Neither one involves forethought: such things take place in an instant, in an eyeblink. This can only be because they have been rehearsed by us already, over and over, in silence and darkness; in such a silence, such darkness, that we are ignorant of them ourselves. Blind but surefooted, we step forward as if into a remembered dance."
from The Blind Assassin by Margaret Atwood